I know one day I'm gonna go too far too far overboard I make money and I make art I fool around about town I don't like the way you're looking at me right about now I was thinkin' bout the apocalypse on a lovely bright and sunny day I didn't know what the hell was going on but the good ol' days at the corner store were gone if you're feeling mighty frisky you can come along with me a million miles away from that middle class skeleton crew lifestyle I got this premonition is there anybody out there listening a million miles away from that sunny day service smile is there anybody out there I'd walk a crooked mile just to sit and talk with you a while is there anybody out there

well it's kinda been forever since somebody really loved me with the kinda love I need how can anybody love a freak like me I don't know how anybody could love a freak like me and if it's true I guess it's just one of those things I don't understand well baby you make me feel more like myself darling than I guess I already am maybe it's some kind of crazy illusion like the girls of the past but they're not here right now all I know is I don't know what I'm doing and I'm trying to figure it out real pain in my ass baby I I hope you feel I will do don't turn away baby don't turn me away just open up your eyes and see me through people laugh at me 'cause I'm kinda stupid always messing up my life and forgetting how I'm doing it look up to the stars and I wish I was one of them maybe I am and there's you and we're doing it maybe that's just my messed up mind playing crazy crazy tricks on me baby I don't think I know you very well at all so I'm pretty sure that I don't really love you after all some day I'll be the best thing that will ever happen to some girl and some girl she'll be the best for me too and I know alone is getting hard as hell to do when no news at all is good news unless it happens to be you okay I'm just fine thanks a lot what the fuck is going on...nothing ok cool man cause no news is good news unless it's really true that some girl just happens to be you some day I'll be the best thing that will ever happen to some girl and some girl she'll be best for me too and I know alone is getting hard as hell to do when no news at all is good news unless it happens to be you okay I'm just fine thanks a lot what the fuck is going on...nothing ok cool man cause no news is good news unless it's really true that some girl just happens to be you

take my hand sweet creature we'll go dancing on the mountain top swim in the river thought you were lost for so long in a hidden place like the old days really thought you were gone take my hand take my hand sweet creature how I cherish you whoa take my hand sweet creature we'll go dancing on the mountain top swim in the river take my hand take my hand sweet creature how I cherish you whoa

I got a right to sing the blues I got a right to be pissed off too I got a right baby got a right to miss you even though you really messed me up I got a right to be a lonely man and I got a right to change if I can and I can and I will but not before another beer and a couple more bars of blues I got a right to put a spell on you yes I do I got a right to put a spell on you ooh yes I do I'm here to let the whole world know I'll let all my demons go no more pulling strings between the devil and the deep blue sea you know it would be so sweet only you and me I'm never gonna set you free I'll never set you free I'll never set you free 'cause you'll be mine all mine yes you will I got a right 'cause I don't wanna sing the blues anymore I don't wanna sing 'em anymore no no what to do what to do what am I to do what to do what to do what am I to do whoa what am I to do what are you to do you'll be so spun around you can't tell the sky from the ground oh you know I love you darling I just need you to be chill you know I love you and you're gonna love me you're gonna love me you're gonna love me you're gonna love me gonna let the whole world know I'll let all my demons go no more pulling strings between the devil and the deep blue sea you know it would be so sweet only you and me I'm never gonna set you free I'll never set you free 'cause you'll be mine you'll be mine all the time, yes aw I don't wanna sing the blues anymore I get so lonely I'm so tired of crying I'm so lonely I don't wanna sing the blues no

I loved your body so much I changed my form and found I occupied old skin slipped adrift in heaven's kiss blissed up and down I spat and hissed cat nothings into otherness skimmed cross the stars and nearly missed intention clear and nothing near it daresay somehow sometime I feared it and how the world got outside me how I clutched my rib with womb envy and wrapped my blanket tight round thee wrapped my blanket tight round thee I loved your body so much I changed my form and found I occupied old skin spirit blood reversed the curse felt like rebirth in reverse and I fell fell fell into sublimated realms of local essences perturbed what's in a body when you're an alien and all you see is the sky talk to me about externals take one away I love my body love my body I love my body talk to me about externals take one away I love my body love my body I love my body talk to me about externals take one away I loved your body so much I changed my form and found I occupied old skin

remember at the state fair at the top of the Ferris wheel I kissed you there you leaned in and well that was the start of this whole affair as I recall we were kinda dealing with other situations commitments fallen through over time don't look at me you were there too can't you see that it's hopeless saw your ex's band play the other night whiny indie rock of the most generic type meanwhile a familiar perfume comes wafting into the room with a glass of red wine she hoity toities around repunzeled up in blue giving me dirt looks that's the girl the one I left for you I admit I'm a little bit butt hurt too what you want me to do let us go on we waited out turn let's pretend like we're the victims sour can turn to sweet it was necessary they just want to watch their favorite shows and jerk themselves off 'till they die and gossip all night all my friends they call me stupid asking "was she really worth a good relationship ruined?" but what the hell do they know she sure put on a good show but at home she bored me to death and I'm guilty yeah I know it was the wrong thing to do and then of course there's you and those slut shaming friends of yours trying to get through so they can ruin our careers but that's not gonna happen darling after a year they'll get used to us together as we're meant to be and they'll see this is forever and ever and ever and everyone will finally leave us alone yes they'll finally leave us alone baby I'm upset you're upset what with all the drama and all the stress of daily amends to respective exes greedy tears and needy texts you say it's a sin I call it fate either way there are no mistakes baby I love you and I know we can make it listen I don't expect her to understand but I hope she finds a good man to reverse the curse to give her the respect that she deserves someone who steers clear of danger and never sleeps with strangers in the bed they share together we waited our turn let's pretend there are no victims other people see what other people see but they just want to watch their favorite shows and jerk themselves off 'till they die gossip all night that's right we waited our turn yeah can't we move on other people see yeah can't we move on we waited our turn can't we move on other people see let us move on we waited our turn yeah let us move on other people see yeah let us move on remember at the state fair at the top of the Ferris wheel?

feel pretty chill on the beach today Busch heavies and a cheap chardonnay chloral hydrate Xanny bars take me home tranny porn on my phone while the wife is out shopping oh I didn't see you there Jim it's a thin line between Saturd- er Thursday afternoon and Sunday morning know what I mean good to see you Jim tell your wife I said hello good to see you Jim tell your wife I said hello fuck noxious drifts of naptha coat the coastal air as my throat begins to swell I croak out an attaboy new jobs and then I think about Revelation twenty one verses one through five all sense of moral responsibility is cast aside all my life I was taught I was born to be bad I'm sorry I disappointed you dad the great race must survive we'll be together when it all dies even bigger and better and brighter than what they did at Trinity in nineteen forty five and then we'll get to meet Jesus in a business suit mad Benjamins and prostitutes oh yeah baby yeah yeah c'mon boy nausea nausea nausea it outshines all the sun not feeling so chill in the hospital with a body that won't move at all this shadow of mine has permanently stained the wall I hear voices prayers and all can't see a thing only voices remain the only joy that life still brings months go by I miss the voice of my wife here she comes now but colder in tone with a man I've never known everything goes black and it all comes flooding back blessed burning Summer sunburn solar nightmare by the ocean surf baby I'm alive and with eyes to see uh uh I'm sick so sick I could vomit an ocean I could vomit an ocean he could vomit an ocean what about Jesus and the master race and nationalism and the apocalypse and stuff what about billionaires that give us jobs what about Percocets and pussy what about Manischewitz and meow what about cocaine and corn pops good cops that ones that help us get from where we is to where we're not food water want some boo fuckin hoo not for people that look like you nausea nausea nausea it outshines all the sun

shaman said that thing I saw that day there's no way I could ever tell you of it no way it was too good to put into words and I can't even remember it well once you go there man you'll know but until you do oh well mad shaman knew what he saw that day he knew it was the best thing he'd ever seen but he knew that the war jocks were gonna come and they were going to try and take it they were gonna take the one good thing that he had the queen of his mind the queen of the rock garden there in the forest that day the shaman knew it was all just gonna go away it was all just gonna fade away he was gonna have to come down soon soon all the dreams would wear away and he would be left in the darkest of gloom down in the dark gloom of reality nothing quite so bleak as waking up sober and sad in the middle of the city street everything looks the same it all has stupid names and everyone walking around you is in a trance and you're not wearing any pants and ah you forgot how to dance

it's a paper chase scowl always on your face complaining all the time now I sit here and think back to the early days but I never wanted this couldn't help but notice your guilty face your aggression subdued at the last few therapy sessions you were I'd say rather quiet with your tight ass lips murmurs of spare me and I did but I'll stop now couldn't help but notice how my self esteem has vanished into the thick of your shadow song I know that getting myself together is going to take a while it's a shame cause I really loved you but all you've done is make me feel like shit though I know I'm still gonna miss you you will need all the luck you can get truly I hope it's worth it mmm good luck to you and goodbye poof goodbye that's what I get for chasing muses knew this would only end in tears we've been on the rocks so long we haven't been soul mates in years mmm how long can we sing that same old song like blah blah blah blahblahblah blah blahblahblah and it's a shame cause I really loved you but all you've done is make me feel like shit though I know I'm still gonna miss you you never reached out to anyone you were far too busy trying to get rich I never wanted this couldn't help but notice how my self esteem has vanished into the thick of your shadow song I know that getting myself together is going to take a while couldn't help but notice mm hmm and it's really a shame yes it is mm hmm but is it really though see I really don't know I just know it hurts right now so bad but not so bad that I'd ever think of it I mean crawling back to you will need all the luck you can get truly I hope it's worth it mmm good luck to you and goodbye poof goodbye that's what I get for chasing muses knew this would only end in tears we've been on the rocks so long we haven't been soul mates in years mmm how long can we sing that same old song like blah blah blah blahblahblah blah blahblahblah how much longer can I sleep in the comfort of belonging when I know the truth is that I've already lost you I've already lost you it was early in the morning the sun was just warming up I was catching a buzz pouring milk into my teacup and stirring with a sigh some cheap sawdust chai thinking "this is our last trip" I could just feel it someday I'll grow older and sweeter than hopes of paradise magic days charmed nights not wincing at the truth that I've already lost you I was wrong to forget how heaviness accumulates I was wrong so were you be nice to me I'm a person too and we both have so many things to do alone after that I gotta get the hell out of here gotta be moving on baby mm gotta stop calling you that I'll be okay it's not the end of the world sucks though yeah yeah yeah yeah I need to take a break I need to get out of here